To the one who rests by the door

You have no cause for worry, my dear friend. You know nothing of pain.
You wake up, and there is nothing that keeps you back.
Oh how I envy you, friend... how I wish we could change shoes.
Everything you need, is provided for you. You have no expectations at all.
You just are, and that's how we love you and always will.
Oh how I try to be you, friend..but I no I can never be.

If the world was like your kind, there would be no wars...except the ones that matter.
If the world was like your kind. there would be constant love and companionship.
I admire you, friend...you teach me more, than mere man could.

To all the things that keep me inactive

Why am I so scared of love? Is it a wild beast, that will devour me and spit me out?
Will there be no hope for me? And will I keep lying to myself, when it's before me?
I desire the touch, but I do not desire anything that comes in the form of emotion.

Why am I scared of freedom? Is it going to keep me accountable, and keep me straight?
Will there be no hope for me? And will I have to be held to this standard all of my life?
I desire the goods, but I do not desire anything that comes in the form of responsibility.

Let love and justice roll over me like a flowing river, overpowering me. Till I have nothing.
Let the desire of my heart jump out, like words on a page-that were previously unspoken.
Let the night be extinguished, with no recourse for why the luminous light has taken ahold.
Let nothing that is keeping me back, keep me back anymore.

This is a new page. And a new dawn, and a new life...I grasp things that I feared before.
And embrace the mess and the hurt that will undoubtedly will bruise my soul.